this is da last time i am going to shed tears for u... i am zonked out.. my heart still ache after for so long... i really dun understand myself.. why da fuck am i doing all these? i have a strong mindset, but my heart wouldnt let me pass... ya! i admit i am weak! what is wrong with myself? why do i have to go thru this? why me? why am i so naive? i continue to ponder all the questions in my mind...... i dun blame anybody.. i can only blame on my fate... its fate.. i start to hate myself for being so useless. i am so ashamed of myself... i am such a weakling! i should get over it for like 123456 months ago... but yet i am still here harbouring some hope... i should just go bang da wall... maybe tat could wake me up from my dream.. there is no one in it anymore. just me... just me.. alone...