i finally know who are da one tat would really care & will be there for me... hmm... somehow this incident make me understood what is life.. luckily i have zx & bb.. i am really fortunate to have u guys as my friend.. i really appreciate.. thou this crislia din appear tonight. but somehow i feel glad.. bcos i really dun wish to start a fight or quarrel.. seriously, even if i know who start da rumor.. what can i do? i dun intend to find trouble or what... bcos it is childish, meaningless & it doesnt help at all.. we are grown ups.. it isnt good to create a scene in da public.. moreover we are girls.. its not a very good sight.. i am not going to be bothered by all these nonsense anymore... i'll just let u ppl to say whatever u want & think whatever u want.. i dun give a damn.. bcos its ur mouth, its ur mind.. 我问心无愧.. however, if u heard anyone saying tat i am a loose girl, pls ask them whether did they ***k me before... its so silly lo... whatever... nights..

insane ppl are trying to ruin my reputation...

seriously i dun understand why are there so many dumb & evil ppl in this world? why did they even exists? pls dun try to abuse me verbally or try to slander me.. bcos u dunno me & u dunno exactly da whole thing bout it.. & i dun owe u ppl an explanation.. so if u loathe me.. just leave my blog..dun even come at all. i just want to study & word hard now. so, leave me alone..at least my friends & i know what kind of person i am. i can confirm that i am not those kind of girl, try asking around & see if u can hear anything negative about me.. & dun try to use ur puny brain to judge or act as if u understand & know me well.. bcos if u would.. u wouldnt have tag such nasty stuff.. pls try harder to devalue me.. seriously i dun understand why do u ppl have to use ur time to do such silly stuffs by going to ppl's blog & try so hard to slander someone.. cant u spend ur time to do things more meaningful? & pls dun hide behind da com, u could tag with ur name..

& to lialia.. u are definitely one ignorant fellow.. never heard of never judge a book by its cover? u can never judge anybody just by its apperance or what.. u have to know & somehow understand da person first before u could really pass ur judgement on him/her.. let's say if u see a guy with a decent look wearing suit & a tie.. u may presume he's a decent & maybe a nice guy.. but who knows? he may be a wolf in sheep clothings.. so PLS dun judge someone by apperance or what.. dun just see things from da outside..
OMG, i just cant stand talking to dumb ppl, me myself is not tat smart already.. imagine there is someone even more dumb den me.. faints!

didi.me.da ge

didi.me.bb

i am lazy to blog bout where have i go or what have i done lately... but this post is just to let those stinky guys know that not all girls working in pub are those u can F & throw! not all are da same. u see this girl working in a pub, mingling around with guys.. u might think.. wow, lok.. can F.. u are so wrong lo. not all girls are da same. it is a decent KTV PUB not those nightclub. not all girls really want to work in such enviroment, giving ppl those negative thoughts... & seriously i dun find working in a pub is tat bad lo.. da only bad thing is ppl tend to think bad about u.. -_- this girl sure lok, this girl sure can f, etc etc... come on la! everybody is different... not all are da same.. so dun judge me like any other girls... & dun compare me with... u dunno me well enough... never heard of never judge a book by its cover? & i do my job with dignity... i'm lots lots diff with those kind of girls! will be leaving crazy after i complete my studies... ya, & no matter how, i cant change how ppl want to think.. is up to them to think whatever they want... i dun care... as long as i know myself & my friends around me know what kind of person i am... tats all... & fyi, nobody has say anything bout me or what.. is just that guys always think girls working in pub is those kind of girl... & i'm trying to tell them otherwise... arghh.. whatever...

this is da last time i am going to shed tears for u... i am zonked out.. my heart still ache after for so long... i really dun understand myself.. why da fuck am i doing all these? i have a strong mindset, but my heart wouldnt let me pass... ya! i admit i am weak! what is wrong with myself? why do i have to go thru this? why me? why am i so naive? i continue to ponder all the questions in my mind...... i dun blame anybody.. i can only blame on my fate... its fate.. i start to hate myself for being so useless. i am so ashamed of myself... i am such a weakling! i should get over it for like 123456 months ago... but yet i am still here harbouring some hope... i should just go bang da wall... maybe tat could wake me up from my dream.. there is no one in it anymore. just me... just me.. alone...

happiness is short-lived... how i wish that moment would last forever...

my room is so scaryyyyyy! its a disaster! pack not even half of my room, & da trash is piling up... dunno how many bags of it already... i am just going to throw everything i need into a box, as if i am moving house & clear everything out of da room... den going to re-paint... faints. 头痛. i am not going to work this week. i guess i will start next week. i have to have my room done by next wed!

room revamp!